Mindful Tuesday

We had a fight. My husband, my son and I. A big one. A bad one. My son stormed out the house. My husband was shouting. I was crying, crying, crying. I took some pills. Ones I shouldn't, not too many. Everything is okay now, swept under the rug, never to be spoken of again....

Mindful Monday

I'm back! Morocco was... Interesting? No, Morocco as a country was amazing. Our hotel was a complete letdown, I don't know if I have unreasonable expectations but you'd think a 3-star resort I spent a year paying off might have air conditioning? A fridge in the rooms? Have more than one cocktail on the menu?...

Mindful Monday

What am I mindful of this week? I have felt very lonely for the past week, I've already posted about it a few times. My son is growing up, my husband works long hours and I spend most of my days alone. It's a horrible feeling when the front door shuts in the morning and...

A Poem: Why Don’t You See Me

Standing in a crowd, what do I seeEveryone walks by, no one looks at meScreaming out loud, why can't you hear?Every note I shout falls on deaf earsWhy is it now, no one can see me?What have I done? What could it be?Drifting like a ghost lost in timeSearching for eyes that'll look into mineCalling...

You Know Your Self-Asteem Is Low When-

Even your dreams reject you. I'm not a well-liked person, I don't have many (any?) friends and never really have. I was a lonely child, an oddball, I never fit in and never will. I can count the number of good friends I had as a child on one hand, none of those relationships survived...

Mindful Tuesday

Just when I thought I was ill enough, I got food poisoning! I have been spewing like a volcano for 24 hours, unable to keep even sips of water down. Today, I have finally managed to have a cup of tea and a slice of toast, that is the sum of all food I have...

DBT

Daily writing promptWhat strategies do you use to cope with negative feelings?View all responses . Being both bipolar and borderline (personality disorder) I have/ do often struggle with a lot of negative feelings. So many negative feelings that this catch-all term can not fully encompass all of the negativity and every strategy for them. For...

Mindful Monday

I've been thinking a lot about death. It started when I had that dream about dying, it was so realistic, I genuinely believe I know what it is like to die. Perhaps it was an omen of things to come? I get heart palpitations often and now every time my heart squeezes I wonder if...

Mindful Monday

How can I be a writer if I don't write? I need to write more, do more, be more but I can't and as tragic as it is, it's because I am too well. It is dawning on me more than ever that I used to write so much better than I do now. Or...

Anyone Else?

Daily writing promptIf you could be someone else for a day, who would you be, and why?View all responses I would be anyone. Anyone that isn't me. I would love to see the world through someone else's eyes and see how they think, feel, and process the world. In fact, I would give anything, everything...