Flashback Friday! The happiest day of her life

This was originally published on my birthday 5 years ago, I wonder what was going through my mind then? It was the happiest day of her life, the most thrilling by far. Her face hurt from smiling so much, her heart felt like it was pounding out of her chest. Of course, all those fantasies,...

Flashback Fiction- This is where my world ended

This is where my world ended. My entire life ended. Right here at the end of this dock. Sure, I might walk, talk and breath but anyone who looks me in the eyes will see the deadness there. The spark of life smothered and put out by grief. I expected that when I finally managed...

Coming of age

  My son turned 11 on Friday. Eleven. Like 99% of eleven year olds today, he has a phone. Now I am not the sort of parent that regularly roots through his phone and scrutanises every spec of information on there. He is an independent young man, with his own individuality and deserves the room...

My 10 year old child is in therapy

Finally I've written on and off, not only about my own mental health struggles but also the struggles I have seen my child go through in his short life and the struggles we have gone through together to receive any help for him.  My son has always been a handful.  Most parents think that of...

A Mothering Nightmare

A Mothering Nightmare A soft scraping sound. A footstep shatters the peace. The bedroom door creaks open slowly. Out of the gloom a monster lurches. Hunched over and groaning. "Muuuum, I don't feel so..." The stomach contents of the beast is promptly evacuated all over the carpet.   Meanwhile   A 30 year old man...

What do you mean you won’t see him?

“What do you mean you won’t see him?” “I’m sorry, there’s just not enough evidence of moderate to severe mental health problems”. “He’s physically hurting himself with distress and frustration, how is that not enough evidence?” The lady on the duty desk at CAMHS (child and adolescent mental health services) sounds a little embarrassed at...

How can a sick mother, look after a sick child?

The holidays are over. Thank fuck for that. Neither of us would have lasted much longer. Kids are beautiful and special and give meaning to your life. He is the reason I get out of bed in the morning. I cannot convey the relief I feel right now, having him back at school.   Raising...

The happiest day of her life

It was the happiest day of her life, the most thrilling by far. Her face hurt from smiling so much, her heart felt like it was pounding out of her chest. Of course, all those fantasies, the daydreams of her wedding day, never featured murder but what else was a girl to do? She had...

The secret at the bottom of the garden

All children know of the secret world that hides itself at the bottom of the garden. The world of fairies and elves, goblins and ghouls. Where gnomes are kind and helpful and fat toads grumpily watch active children, just waiting for them to step a toe out of line to receive a whip of their...

Dream

Before you came into my life, I lived in a black and white movie with glaring plot holes, stunted characters and long aerial shots of barren fields. The second I saw you, colour burst into my life. My entire world was forever changed. The sun broke through the clouds at last, fireworks flew, rainbows shone...