I read through so many amazing blogs, written by amazing people that have survived all different kinds of hell.
There is real darkness, real struggle, real pain, splashed out all over those pages.
Interwoven through all those shadows, there is light, hope, optimism.
Even when I’m not writhing around in pain from another attack of the internal demons- I’m not okay.
When I’m alert and smiling and making it through the day- I’m not okay.
How do you tell people, it’s okay, you’ll get through this, you won’t always feel this way? When deep down you really don’t believe it.
Yes there are ups in life but there are always downs- downs so low, I’d rather be dead than face another second of living.
I can tell people that all sorts of things are survivable… But I can’t tell you it’s worth surviving.
How do you remain so positive that one day everything will be okay?