Mental health feelings

I don’t feel human

I don’t feel very human today, well often but especially today.

I’ve been doing DBT -dialectical behaviour therapy and so far it seems like they’re just trying to teach me how to have ‘normal’ thoughts and feelings.

Which is what I really want.

But so far… I just don’t understand any of it.

I left the session yesterday, more lost and confused than ever.

How can I not understand the basic ‘rules’ for interacting with other people?

robot

 

 

 

Like a robot asking innocently “human, why are your eyes leaking, do you have a malfunction?”

Or an alien- “What is this thing you creatures call… love?”
I just don’t know how to be a human.

 

 

On top of that while on the school run yesterday another mum asked if I was pregnant…

No, just fat, thanks for noticing.

I tried.

I’ve had enough.

Can I give up now?

 

Photo by Franck V. on Unsplash

8 thoughts on “I don’t feel human

  1. I’ve never heard of DBT before, it sounds useful, like reprogramming all the glitches in thinking. It must be complicated though, it’s not surprising you were confused.
    And maybe your mum didn’t think you looked fat, but that you had a healthy glow! 🙂

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      1. Human interactions are as complicated as it gets, and the rules keep changing! I ate a half pack of biscuits today, I glow with happiness now 😀

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  2. Congratulations on expecting. 😀
    Yeah… I had to ask my counselor to take things a different way ’cause I’m too stuck in my logical mind to successfully listen to my core. We’re going with listing what I love then following a “why path” to create cognizant happiness.

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