I don’t feel very human today, well often but especially today.
I’ve been doing DBT -dialectical behaviour therapy and so far it seems like they’re just trying to teach me how to have ‘normal’ thoughts and feelings.
Which is what I really want.
But so far… I just don’t understand any of it.
I left the session yesterday, more lost and confused than ever.
How can I not understand the basic ‘rules’ for interacting with other people?
Like a robot asking innocently “human, why are your eyes leaking, do you have a malfunction?”
Or an alien- “What is this thing you creatures call… love?”
I just don’t know how to be a human.
On top of that while on the school run yesterday another mum asked if I was pregnant…
No, just fat, thanks for noticing.
I’ve had enough.
Can I give up now?