Mental health feelings

Yesterday

Yesterday I was so sure. I knew what was what. Why they were the way they were. I was sure on what was black, what white was, I could muddle through the greys. I was sure footed, on solid ground.

I should have known it wouldn’t last.

My solid foundations crumbled. Dropping me into the unknown. My heart jumps in my throat and my stomach takes its place in my chest, blocking my airways, I can’t breath. Can’t scream. Panicking, I scramble to grab hold of my truths. So solid just yesterday but they crumble and turn to dust in my hands.

Free falling, I twist and turn, trying to grasp something, anything but it’s all gone. Destroyed.
I don’t know now. I don’t know if I ever truly did.
I have nothing. Am nothing.

I’m sorry.

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