I close my eyes and feel the wind whip my hair, drying my tears on my face. I take a step forward on shaky, unsteady legs, feeling like they may betray me and buckle at any moment. My stomach lurches and I bring a clammy hand to my mouth. My ragged breath rips through my chest, past my pounding heart, I feel like I might explode.
I don’t know if I can do this. I don’t think I’m ready.
I need to take a leap, I need to have faith that I will land. Maybe not even safely but at least land in one piece.
I can’t open my eyes, I can’t face this drop. Fear has me within it’s grasp, has me frozen in place. A fresh wave of tears stream down my face. Steeling myself against the blustering wind, I hold in my ragged breath and inch my toes slightly closer.
Am I ready for this?
Only time will tell….